Looking for a small helping hand.

Hello y'all, my name is Emily & I am in need of a helping hand. I am a single mother to my 3 year old son & divorced from his father. In the past 3 years my ex husband hasn't even spent an hour with his son along with not putting my son a stable place. I have waited & saved every ounce of everything to prove it but now I need a lawyer. Where I live there are no "free lawyers" to actually represent you. So I am in need of a few pennies to try & buy a local lawyer. Now I'm not the typical mom "oh I hate my ex so I am taking his son" I have given this man over a million chances & even had a court date bad a 1 1/2 ago with no lawyer & my ex begged me to cancel it cause he knows he's in trouble, he owes me $1800 in back by child support, so being nice I cancelled it. Long story short I truly need help & anything is truly appreciated. Here is my PayPal link & if anyone would love to hear me blabber more I'm more then happy to chat :) thank you everyone.